Tweet Over the last week I’ve come to a pretty scary realization… I hate my life. Hate is a really strong word but it sums up what I’m feeling lately. When I first walked into AA several years ago I was naive and thought that getting sober would solve all my problems – that life would suddenly […]
Admitting vs Acceptance
Tweet Today at one of my regular meetings, the chairperson picked a great topic to talk about – admitting versus acceptance. For me, I had no problem admitting I was an alcoholic. I knew without a doubt that my life had become unmanageable and that I had a problem. It definitely didn’t take a rocket […]
This and That
Tweet This is gonna be kind of a mish mash of things. I have a couple things to talk about today. So here we go… 10 months! I am celebrating 10 months (on the 3rd) sober since my relapse. For quite awhile I was constantly feeding quarters to the ass kicking machine – I couldn’t stop […]
Does it ever get easier????
Tweet I’ve been around the tables for quite awhile (almost 3 years) and I keep hearing over and over how God/Higher Power has removed the desire/urge for a drink from people. I’m ashamed to admit it but I get so frustrated when people say this. I hope it’ll make sense as I write this. So […]
Since the relapse…
Tweet 5 months sober I celebrated 5 months sober on the 3rd of this month. Sometimes I still have a hard time letting go of the fact I relapsed so close to my 2 year anniversary. But I’ve also learned that it is what it is. My relapse is part of my journey and […]
It’s Been a Long Time…
Tweet Wow….it’s been a really looooong time since I’ve wrote! Lots of reason’s for that: I haven’t really felt compelled to write here I’m guessing that’s because I’m really working the program and sharing around the tables, sharing with my sponsor and a few close friends. In the beginning, I started this blog as way […]
Dealing with Death Sans Alcohol
Tweet Death is never an easy thing to deal with but dealing with it as a sober person seems 100% harder…at least for me. I received a call last Sunday morning that I wasn’t expecting – “I have to tell you something.” (Yeah, you know it’s not going to be good when a conversation starts […]
7 Months Sober
Tweet Today marks my 7 month anniversary of sober living! 7 months…it almost feels surreal. I’m not sure why 7 months feel so significant…maybe because it’s that much closer to one year. It’s been a great day of reflection and looking back on how far I’ve come these past 7 months and how much work […]
I Was Struggling
Tweet I’ve been doing pretty good with not thinking about drinking and not craving it. Last weekend I was with family at a sports bar for a big football game & I did fine with all the drinking going on around me…until the waitress sat a beer down in front of me by accident. Just […]
I’m Still Around
Tweet It’s been almost a month since I’ve posted! Lots has happened over the last month (almost month). Let’s see if I can bore you to death with the details of my life over the last month. Ok, so here we go: Had a massive reaction to the medicine I was put on for sleeping […]