A couple days ago a really cool vision came to me as I was laying in bed. It was a vision of me being stuck in the ugliness of a cocoon (drinking) for so long and I’m finally emerging/breaking free from the cocoon and turning into a beautiful butterfly (sobriety).
I have to admit it made me laugh at first because honestly I don’t feel there’s one beautiful thing about me right now. I’m so moody right now and angry and…well I’m just not beautiful right now! There’s a whole heck of a lot of ugliness about me right now…but I know that will all change as I keep working the AA program and working with my treatment counselor and keep growing and changing in my personal life.
But I loved the vision. It really hit home and gave me chills to think that making the decision to stop drinking and start on a journey of recovery and sober living could really turn me into a beautiful butterfly.
Side note: it’s because of this vision that my header on this site looks like it does – I thought it was perfect to incorporate this vision into my site because that’s what this journey is all about…breaking free from that ugly cocoon and turning into something beautiful!
Until next time…
I’m sure you had inner and outer beauty always, but your sobriety is allowing you to see it. I hope this isn’t annoying to you. I just want to remind you of your early days. I’m only on 15 so I’m SO not the expert.
Congratulations on your 15 days! Oh my gosh how I remember what my first 15 days were like – they weren’t pretty! lol