I have been sober living for 10 days!
To an alcoholic that’s something to be celebrated (without alcohol of course!) This is so significant in so many ways – one obviously being staying sober for 10 days is a big accomplishment but I feel like today was a turning point. It was the first morning I woke up without a headache. It was the first day I didn’t have the shakes/jitters. It was the first day I didn’t have the sweats. It was the first day I didn’t wake up feeling like a witch with a capital B. It’s the first day my head felt clear. It’s the first day I smiled and actually meant it and felt it.
I also have to be careful of feeling good and not get caught up in that and fall prey to the ‘oh I feel good so I can stop going to AA meetings now‘. Honestly I’m not sure if I could stop going to these meetings if someone forced me to. These meetings are my lifeline. I look forward to these meetings. I look forward to the fellowship with others that understand exactly what I’m feeling and what is going on in my life. These meetings…are amazing. That’s pretty much how I sum them up. The people are amazing too.
One thing you’ll learn in AA is that once you get sober or start the road to recovery is you will have a whole lot of firsts because suddenly you’re doing things sober and noticing stuff that has always been there but when you’re drunk you don’t notice or if you do notice they annoy you or you just don’t care. For example – birds. They’ve always been here. They’ve always annoyed me with their chirping (hello it’s loud!) especially on mornings after a good drunk! But for the first time today I listened without annoyance. I listened and for the first time I realized their chirping is kind of relaxing and does something to my soul.
Until next time…
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