If you’re new here, you may want to subscribe to my RSS feed to be notified of new posts. Thanks for visiting!Tweet Over the last week I’ve come to a pretty scary realization… I hate my life. Hate is a really strong word but it sums up what I’m feeling lately. When I first walked into AA […]
Admitting vs Acceptance
Tweet Today at one of my regular meetings, the chairperson picked a great topic to talk about – admitting versus acceptance. For me, I had no problem admitting I was an alcoholic. I knew without a doubt that my life had become unmanageable and that I had a problem. It definitely didn’t take a rocket […]
This and That
Tweet This is gonna be kind of a mish mash of things. I have a couple things to talk about today. So here we go… 10 months! I am celebrating 10 months (on the 3rd) sober since my relapse. For quite awhile I was constantly feeding quarters to the ass kicking machine – I couldn’t stop […]
Does it ever get easier????
Tweet I’ve been around the tables for quite awhile (almost 3 years) and I keep hearing over and over how God/Higher Power has removed the desire/urge for a drink from people. I’m ashamed to admit it but I get so frustrated when people say this. I hope it’ll make sense as I write this. So […]
Since the Relapse: 7 Month Sobriety Anniversary
Tweet A few days ago marked my seven month anniversary…since the relapse. On one hand things have been a lot different since coming back through the doors (of AA) and starting over again with sober living. But on the other hand some things haven’t been different. One of the biggest differences is that this time […]
Since the relapse…
Tweet 5 months sober I celebrated 5 months sober on the 3rd of this month. Sometimes I still have a hard time letting go of the fact I relapsed so close to my 2 year anniversary. But I’ve also learned that it is what it is. My relapse is part of my journey and […]
17 Years Later And It’s Come Back To Haunt Me
Tweet Just one more. No one stops me. Just one more. No one cares. Just one more. Everyone’s doing it. Just one more. Just one more. Just one more…I couldn’t stop. I couldn’t stop taking shot after shot after shot after shot. I couldn’t drink the beer fast enough or gulp the Rum & Coke […]
Coming Back From A Relapse
Tweet One month and six days away from my two year sobriety anniversary…and I put myself in a situation I had no right being in without sharing with anyone in my support circle that I was even entertaining the idea of stepping into a bar, let alone sharing I already had my mind made up […]
It’s Been a Long Time…
Tweet Wow….it’s been a really looooong time since I’ve wrote! Lots of reason’s for that: I haven’t really felt compelled to write here I’m guessing that’s because I’m really working the program and sharing around the tables, sharing with my sponsor and a few close friends. In the beginning, I started this blog as way […]
Lots to Think About
Tweet First off, I “celebrated” (I still have a hard time saying celebrate, celebration, celebrated because in the past those were usually all associated with me getting drunk!) 8 months sobriety this past Monday with my sponsor and then a group of wonderful lady AA friends at a meeting. I’m so blessed for the amazing […]